Chapter 16 Chapter 16 Leaving

"Let Sister Ru sing us a song, but the content must be about her and Master Li." "What about Sister Ru? It's time to change to Mrs. Li." Everyone was talking about how to make trouble in Fang Ru's bridal chamber. I had a slight smile on my face, and my thoughts wandered between listening and not listening.Hong Gu said regretfully, "Why did you let Master Li move out? Even if you marry Fang Ru, you can still live in the garden!" "Let the two of them live their lives in peace and quiet! You ask Musician Li to compose the lyrics. Could it be that he refuses because he has already married Fang Ru? It won't affect the business of the singing and dancing studio." I said casually.

Aunt Hong stared at me for a while, then asked, "Xiaoyu, what's the matter with you these days? Why do I feel that you've become estranged from us?" I shook my head: "Master Li's status is not what it used to be. There must be people from the temple to congratulate at the banquet, and I'm afraid there will be people from the palace to congratulate. You will carefully tell the sisters in the garden later, don't make a fuss." .” Hong Gu hurriedly agreed, and I stood up a little tiredly: "I have already told Fang Ru in advance that I won't send her out, all thanks to Hong Gu."

Aunt Hong looked at me worriedly, I patted her on the shoulder, signaled her to rest assured, and quietly walked out of the room. Fang Ru was being served by several women to put on her makeup, and Xuan Xuan's wedding dress was spread out on the couch, exuding an overwhelming joy.I listened to the laughter in the room from time to time outside the window: "Ms. Fang really knows how to choose a date. She chooses the new year. The whole world celebrates the girl's great joy!" The thumbs and index fingers of the old woman's hands opened and closed, and they were twisting Fang Ru's face with silk thread.Fang Ru stiffened her body and did not dare to move. The maid who served her smiled and said, "The master chooses the day."

"This wedding dress is really well done! Was it a gift from Empress Li? After all, royal things are extraordinary." The woman who arranged the wedding dress and jewelry flattered. Fang Ru's face had just been wrung clean, and she was looking closely at the mirror. Hearing this, she turned her head and smiled and said, "Xiaoyu bought it. The empress originally meant to reward her, but she heard about the wedding dress bought by Xiaoyu. She said she couldn't do it again." All right." The woman exclaimed "tsk tsk". I turned around and walked out of the courtyard gate, walking slowly towards my own house.Today is really a good day, the clouds are light and the wind is light, the sun is melting, the garden is full of lights and festoons, and the joy in the air is so strong that it cannot be melted.

After entering my own yard and closing the door, I dug out the blue Loulan dress, held it in my arms for a while, and spread it out on the couch. After scooping up water to clean his face, he loosened his hair and shaved it loosely with a comb. Only the hair on both sides was braided into two braids, and then combined into a bunch at the back of the head.The complexion is fair enough, but powder can be omitted.Dip a little powder with a brush, and swipe it a few times. Instead of drawing the long eyebrows that are popular today, I draw a distant mountain eyebrow.Take out the rouge silk sheet, drip two drops of water, the water slowly fades away, the red color of the silk sheet becomes vivid, as if the soul of the flower attached to it is revived, when the color is the heaviest, first purse your lips, and then rub your lips together Pat the cheeks evenly.

The sound of drum music outside the window suddenly rang loudly, and it seemed that the people welcoming the relatives had arrived.He listened carefully, his mind swayed slightly, and the joy was overwhelming.This may be the music that women want to hear most, a music played only for themselves. Put on the skirt and headgear, look at yourself in the mirror, think of the wolf brother in the desert, can't help but turn around the room a few times, the skirt bulges like a flower blooming in the wind, and the mood becomes much lighter . The most torturous thing is waiting. The heart hangs in mid-air, unable to rise or fall, and the tiny water drops of the clepsydra knock on the heart every sound.After staring at it for a long time, I feel that the water seems to be unwilling to drip down, and it is getting slower and slower.I shook my head, forcing myself to look away from the clepsydra.

I had to find something for myself to divert my mind, and searched for things to pass the time all over the room, and finally held a colorful silk rope in my hand.I closed my eyes and tied the knots indiscriminately, and then opened my eyes and began to concentrate on untying the knots.Knotting, untying, and repeating, the room is already dark. I threw the rope, walked out into the yard, and stared at the gate. The light of the sky disappeared little by little, and the darkness pressed down. Maybe he didn't want to see outsiders, so he didn't want to come at dawn, but he would definitely come later.

From standing facing the door to standing with your back to the door, from hoping to praying. Everyone went to drink Fang Ru's wedding wine, and the garden was surprisingly quiet. It's so quiet, so quiet that I can hear the sound of my heart sinking, I don't feel pain, but it feels more and more black, the deep and secluded hole sinks a little bit, and I don't know when it will hit the cold ground. A few points of coldness fell on the face, and after a while, pieces of crystal clear plain color swirled down.The snow is not heavy, and it does not fall in a hurry. It dances with the wind, and it is still resting when it is about to fall, with an indescribable tenderness and lingering.

"Squeak", the sound of the door being pushed open.My heart soared in an instant, and in an instant I was so sad that I couldn't look back. It turns out that happiness comes too hard, and happiness also comes with pain. I stood quietly for a while, then turned around with a smile. The smile is still condensed on the face, but there is despair in the heart.I closed my eyes in disbelief, and opened them again, it was still Huo Qubing. "The first time I saw you, you wore this dress. Under the silver moonlight, next to a silver wolf, the long skirt was flying, and the blue hair was fluttering. It was so light that there was no trace of human appearance. As a girl, I can't help staring at you blindly, wanting to see where you came from and where you are going." Huo Qubing smiled slightly.

I put my head in my hands and slowly squatted on the ground. Huo Qubing stretched out his hand in amazement to help me. "Leave me alone, leave me alone..." I said to myself unconsciously, over and over again, and he slowly withdrew his hand. Huo Qubing ignored the dust and snow on the ground and the brocade clothes on his body, and sat down next to me without saying a word, as if no matter how long I squatted, he planned to just accompany me silently. Snowflakes slowly accumulated on the two of them. He hesitated for a while, but reached out to pat the snow off my hair and body.I was motionless, like a sculpture of ice.

He got up suddenly and entered the room, and after a while he came out with a bamboo umbrella, sat quietly beside me, and opened the umbrella.The snowflakes danced silently, and he looked at Tian Subai lightly. Xiaoqian and Xiaotao flew into the yard one after the other, Xiaoqian folded his wings and landed in front of me, but Xiaotao flew straight at my head.Huo Qubing flicked his sleeve, slowing Xiao Tao's pounce. Seeing that he couldn't bully me this time, Xiao Tao spun around and landed beside Xiao Qian. Huo Qubing went to catch Xiao Tao, Xiao Tao ran away, but Xiao Qian wanted to peck Huo Qu Bing angrily, Huo Qu Bing avoided, and knocked on Xiao Qian's head: "I want to take the letter on Xiao Tao's lap, but I didn't intend to bully it." I hurriedly raised my head to look at Xiao Tao, and it really had a silk strip tied around its leg. After hesitating for a while, I opened the silk strip: The three characters were crooked and scattered across the silk strip. Sorry?Sorry! I don't want your sorry.I was so miserable in my heart that I bit my lips tightly, a fishy sweetness slowly spread in my mouth.He wanted to tear the silk strip into pieces, but his hands just kept trembling, the silk strip was too small, so it was difficult to apply force, and it didn't break after several times of pulling. I jumped up and rushed into the house, grabbing the silk strip with one hand and throwing whatever I saw with the other.Huo Qubing stood quietly at the door, watching me frantically rummaging through the room with a calm expression. Scissors, where are the scissors?After sweeping away half of the room, I still couldn't find the scissors. My eyes caught a small knife for peeling fruit, and I quickly grabbed it in my hand.Huo Qubing yelled "Yu'er" suddenly, the person had already landed in front of me, and was about to split his hands to grab the small knife in my hand, but saw that I was just cutting the silk with the knife fiercely, he quietly stepped back a few steps , watching me tear the silk strips. I threw the knife casually, and tore off the pearl headband with the silk scarf on my head. With both hands, the pearls scattered in an instant and fell to the ground with a tinkling sound. The silk scarf shattered into blue butterflies, fluttering lightly in the wind. I stared at the patches of blue on the ground, and the resentment in my heart that supported me to stand upright suddenly disappeared, and my body softened and I fell to my knees on the ground, staring at the front with wide eyes, but actually saw nothing. Huo Qubing flipped up his robe and sat on the threshold, with his hands on his knees, his chin resting on his knees, staring down at the ground.Quiet as a wounded wolf, quietly lying in a corner, licking the wound alone. I don't know how long I knelt down, but I heard faint voices and laughter, and the bridal chamber troublemaker had returned.I woke up suddenly, jumped up, smiled and said cheerfully: "I just ate something in the morning, now I'm hungry, I want to cook something delicious for myself, today is my birthday, I should Be happy. I want to change clothes, you..." He turned his back to me, I took off Loulan's dress, and specially chose a fiery red dress to put on.I'm not sad, I'm not sad, I'm not sad for people who don't like me!Holding the blue dress lightly, he muttered to himself, but his heart, which he thought was in extreme pain, was stabbed with knives and swords again. The first time we met by the Crescent Lake, the scenes are still in front of my eyes, but it seems that it has been a few lifetimes. I smiled, laughed, and laughed so that my whole body was trembling. Huo Qubing turned to look at me when he heard the sound, and sighed softly: "Why bother...he gave you this dress?" I threw away the dress and walked straight out the door.Huo Qubing held up his umbrella and walked beside me silently. My heart is colder than snow, so how can I be afraid of the coldness of this day?I took two quick steps: "I want to walk in the snow." Without saying a word, he threw away the umbrella and walked with me through the snow. I didn't want to meet people, so I deliberately chose a dark place to walk, and he suddenly asked, "Can you cook?" I was taken aback, and replied, "No." He said: "The kitchen fire in my mansion is kept closed at night, and there are people keeping watch at night. I can't bring out serious dishes, but it's okay to cook some delicious snacks." Honggu was very strict about food and clothing, after dinner, the kitchen in the garden had to put out the fire, even if there was a fire, she didn't know where to find a cook tonight.I nodded, and following Huo Qubing, the two walked out of the garden and went to his mansion. Huo Qubing gave orders to the servants, and not long after, two maidservants came in with steaming meals. When they lifted the lid, it turned out to be a bowl of fragrant mutton soup. I stared down at the mutton soup in the bowl. I just took a sip, and I was still talking to Huo Qubing with a stubborn smile, and my tears fell unexpectedly. Come down, fall on the soup, one after another small ripples sway.I hurriedly picked up the bowl, half covered my face, and ate desperately. Huo Qubing pretended not to see it, and said something irrelevant to himself. I suppressed my nasal voice and asked, "Is there any wine?" He got up and brought two jugs of wine over.A face towel was handed over along with the jug, and he didn't even look at me, looking out the window at the dark night and snowflakes in the sky, holding the jug and drinking the wine in one gulp. I raised the wine jug and gulped it down. After a while, the strong wine burned like a fire in my stomach. When I was half awake, I only felt a light and mild fragrance lingering in my nose. When I woke up, I realized that the fragrance came from two gold-plated double bee cluster pattern hollowed out silver smoked balls hanging on the tent.Liuyunbat Zixia Tent, Lan Tianqingbi Warm Jade Pillow, rich and noble atmosphere is not ordinary people, after a moment, I realized that I passed out drunk in Huo Mansion. Staring at the silver smoked ball above his head in a daze, he suddenly missed Brother Lang terribly, and felt that the only way to relieve some of the pain and exhaustion in his heart was to hug his neck at this moment. The servant girl probed softly outside: "Is the girl awake?" I opened my eyes and ignored it. After another half a day, I heard Huo Qubing asking outside: "Are you still awake?" "The servant screamed a few times, but there was no movement inside." Huo Qubing ordered: "Where do people who practice martial arts get so much sleep? Get ready to wash things!" After speaking, he pushed the door and walked in, "Don't lie on the couch, it's already past noon, lie down again, you won't need to use it tonight asleep." I lay still and he sat by the couch and asked, "Do you have a headache?". I rubbed my head and said with some puzzlement, "It doesn't hurt. In the past, I drank alcohol and my head hurt a little. Today is strange. What kind of wine did you drink last night?" "What's so special about the wine? It's because herbs are added to the smoked ball on your head, and the doctor specially made the prescription last night." The maidservants filed in with handkerchiefs and makeup boxes in their hands, lined up in wild geese, and waited quietly with bated breath.It seems that being sorry is not enough, life always goes on regardless of whether you like it or not, and there is nowhere to hide if you want to escape.I sighed: "I'm about to get up, should you avoid it?" Huo Qubing got up and smiled, "Lazy cat, be quicker. I'm already hungry, so I can only leave you a bowl of leftovers when I'm late." Weiyang Palace, Zhaoyang Palace. I stretched out a finger to tease Liu Mao in the nurse's arms. The child's soft little hand was just able to hold my finger. He was moving and laughing at the same time. His face was as big as a pear, pink and tender.I was delighted to see it, and approached him with a smile and asked, "What are you laughing at? Tell my aunt." Seeing the surprised expression on the wet nurse's face, I realized that I had said something wrong in a moment of carelessness.Although the child can't even speak, my status does not allow me to call myself my aunt.I withdrew my hand somewhat embarrassingly, and sat up straight. Li Yan ordered the wet nurse to take the child away, and said with a smile: "If you really have an aunt like you, Mao'er is really lucky, let Mao'er recognize you as an aunt!" I bowed my body and said: "Prince Tian Family, I really dare not." Li Yan smiled lightly and didn't say any more. She looked at me for a while and then asked, "What's wrong with you? There's so much sadness between your brows?" I shook my head lightly and said, "How is your health?" "There are so many people serving, and the recovery is very good. Did you have a twists and turns with the owner of Shifang?" Li Yan asked tentatively. I changed her subject and smiled at her, "Congratulations." "Congratulations? Where does the joy come from?" "General Li Guang's younger brother and Li Gan's uncle, Li Cai, An Lehou, has been promoted to prime minister! He is the head of all officials, with a golden seal and purple ribbon, and he is in charge of the prime minister, taking care of everything every day." Li Yan's expression remained unchanged, and she said casually: "In the end, I still have to thank you." I smiled: "Don't dare to take credit, my mother called me into the palace to meet the little prince, I have already seen him, I should leave the palace." I bowed to Li Yan and asked to leave. Li Yan didn't allow me to leave, she stared at me silently for a while, and said word by word: "Jin Yu, help me." I shook my head: "From the day I sent you into the palace, I have said that I can do nothing about what happens after you enter the palace." "What you said was a lie. Everything you did had a plan in your heart, but I still can't see what you intend to do until now." I remained silent and didn't speak. There were some wrong pictures in the first place, and now I have no pictures at all. Li Yan waited for a while, then suddenly sighed softly: "Jin Yu, your character looks Yuantong on the surface, but in fact you are extremely stubborn. I can't force you, but please don't fight me." She smiled bitterly, "Everyone It is said that Wei Qing has a good sister, but I think the real lucky one is Empress Wei. God gave her a younger brother as calm as General Wei, and then gave her a nephew like a goshawk. I can only rely on myself. I really hope that you are my sister, but if I have a sister like you, I will not walk so hard." I stared at her and said solemnly: "Don't worry, from now on, I have nothing to do with your affairs, and I will never block your way." Li Yan nodded, and said a little tiredly: "You must always remember what you said now, you go!" After I got up, I stood quietly for a while. I am afraid that we will never meet again after this farewell. I always have sympathy and pity for this woman who is somewhat similar to my life experience, and I can't help but sincerely exhort: " Li Yan, take care of yourself. If you have time, read the classics of doctors and learn some methods of conditioning and nursing. Breathing and exhaling are very good for prolonging life. Your Majesty is proficient in this way. You may wish to learn from it. The more lonely you are, the more you should cherish it. Own." Li Yan felt the sincerity in my tone, and there was warmth in her eyes: "I remember, I still have a son to take care of, and I will definitely cherish myself." I smiled and bowed to her: "I'm leaving." Li Yan smiled and nodded. Not long after leaving the palace where Li Yan lived, he saw Huo Qubing coming towards him.I saluted Huo Qubing, he looked at the direction I came from and asked, "Are you here to see Mrs. Li?" I nodded, looked at the way he came and asked, "Have you gone to meet the Empress?" Huo Qubing nodded. I was two or three steps behind Huo Qubing, walking behind him, Huo Qubing said: "Are you so careful when you walk in the palace?" "You and I have different identities. If people see walking side by side in this palace, there will be no good things to say." I saw that he looked quite disdainful, and hurriedly added: "Of course you are not afraid, and few people dare to frustrate you now. You are at the forefront. When you are proud, you can get by no matter what, but when you are frustrated, you can find mistakes in everything. Now it is always right to be careful and save yourself a little way out." Huo Qubing snorted coldly and said: "I see your hands and feet are so tied up, you are so annoying! You will enter the palace as little as possible in the future." I smiled and asked, "Are you busy recently? I haven't seen you for more than two months since the New Year's farewell." He lifted his spirits and said with high spirits: "This time I want to play big, of course I have to practice well. By the way, do you want to go back to the desert grassland?" I hesitated for a while: "I don't know." "You don't know? Everyone is like this, and you...you...you..." Huo Qubing stopped in his tracks for a moment, his face was full of anger, and he pointed at me angrily. I looked at him quietly with a dejected expression. He shook his head suddenly and strode away quickly, as if he wanted to leave all the unpleasantness behind him: "I think you are a bitch, you don't deserve to be beaten! But I am even more of a motherfucker than you!" Bitch, don't deserve a beating!" The gardener rummaged in the soil for a while, then shook his head and said to me: "It hasn't germinated yet, it looks like it's dead, let me replant some for you!" "No." The gardener stood up and said, "But there are no flowers and plants in this garden, and it would be ugly to be bare. How about I pick a few hibiscus and plant them?" "Don't bother with that, just be bald when you're bald!" I stood in front of the garden, dazed in a daze, and didn't notice when the gardener left. When the sun was slanting to the west, Honggu called out at the gate of the courtyard: "Xiaoyu, a distinguished guest is here to visit you." I looked sideways, and it turned out to be Huo Qubing's housekeeper, Uncle Chen. He walked a few steps quickly, saluted me with a smile, and I dodged to avoid it: "Uncle Chen, I can't stand your salute." He laughed and said, "Why can't I bear it? If it weren't for you, how could I have the life to stand here and salute you?" "What's the matter? I want to trouble you to go there yourself?" Uncle Chen looked at Aunt Hong who was still standing at the gate of the courtyard. Aunt Hong hurriedly saluted Uncle Chen and left in a hurry. "Master has been busy every day since the beginning of spring, and there is very little time to go back home. He really has to leave, so he ordered me to bring you a message. At dawn tomorrow, he will leave Chang'an for Longxi." I saluted Uncle Chen as a thank you: "I'm sorry for your trouble." Uncle Chen looked at me with a smile, his eyes were full of kindness, and I felt uncomfortable being looked at by him. After a while, he finally said goodbye and left. When having dinner, Hong Gu held back for a while and said: "The housekeeper of the Huo Mansion is not an ordinary person. I heard that he is a man who can fight with a knife and write with a pen. Although he has no official position, he is The officials in the imperial court are also polite when they see him. I think Huo Dashao is a bit difficult to handle, but he treats you very well..." "Honggu, let's eat!" Honggu poked a piece of meat hard with her chopsticks, and muttered: "I will suffer a disadvantage if I don't listen to the old man, and I am getting older. Do you want to learn from me and live alone forever?" After dinner, go back to your room. A person sat alone in the dark room for a long time, fumbled to light the lamp, found the stove for cooking tea on weekdays, and set up a charcoal fire.He took out the bamboo box from the closet, looked at a box full of silk handkerchiefs that had been placed according to the date, and suddenly laughed. Happiness is a flower that blooms out of thin air in the heart, beautiful and enchanting, sweet and fragrant in the low back and tactful place.People's memory can deceive people, I am afraid that one day I will not be able to remember today's happiness, so I want to write down everything that happened in the future, and when I am old, when I am too old to walk, I just sat on the couch and looked at these silk handkerchiefs, looking at my happiness, and maybe the occasional sadness, whether happiness or sadness are traces of my life, but I will try my best to be happy... I thought that if you put aside the past, there will only be occasional sadness in the days to come, but it turns out that no matter how hard you work and your heart, what you end up with is still heart-wrenching sadness.It turns out that there are many memories, and people would be willing to erase them forever. Without memories, there is no pain. With a wave of my hand, I threw the joy of the first scene in Chang'an City into the charcoal fire, and the charcoal fire suddenly turned red, and I happily devoured the silk handkerchief. Master Jiu, I've been inquiring about Shifang's affairs for the past few days. If I'm not mistaken, Shifang was affected because of Dou's downfall.Back then, His Majesty deliberately promoted Wei in order to limit the influence of Dou's and Wang's relatives.Now, as the power of Wei's relatives grows, His Majesty will definitely tend to restrain Wei's power and help other forces because of his constant fear of foreign relatives. If he chooses the right time and chooses the right person, Shi Fang will definitely be able to restore his old days in Chang'an The glory of the city... At that time, my thoughts were still so simple, my way of seeing things was so simple, and my methods of doing things were so direct and almost naked. Now I think about it without fear.I shook my head, a wishful, self-righteous joke, raised my hand lightly, and threw it into the charcoal fire again. I thought I was smart enough to guess what you were thinking, but I didn't.When you light the green lantern, do you expect me to go? I heard you say "the lights are bright, the happy event is coming", I really want to know if my arrival is your happy event?I hope so, but I'm no longer confident in guessing what's on your mind, maybe I'll guess wrong again and deceive myself for nothing.But one day I will show you these, you want to tell me was it me that you lit the lamp and waited for last night? ... I just threw the silk handkerchief into the charcoal fire, and in a flash of thought, I immediately snatched it out and extinguished the sparks.Fortunately, only a corner was burned, and the veil became a little black, but the content can still be read. He picked out and burned the few articles involving Li Yan's life experience, and stared at the rest in a daze. After a while, I made up my mind.At that time, my heart and mind were longing for the day when I could be with him under the lamp to see the mood of these daughters. Although it is impossible to have the scene of laughing together under the lamp now, since these things were written for him, I simply gave them to him. Forget this relationship. Holding jasper inlaid gold earrings in his hand, he looked at them carefully for a while, then wrapped them in a silk handkerchief and put them in a bamboo box. The long yellow sand, I saw it next to the Crescent Lake for the first time, when I left with Luo Chang in my hand, I never imagined that one day I would tear it apart with my own hands. Holding the Xiangfei bamboo flute, I brought it to my lips and blew it lightly a few times, looking around the room, I have already cleaned up all your things.If people's minds can be easily removed like cleaning a house, perhaps there will be a lot less troubles. Wandering outside Shifu for a while, thinking that it was past midnight, it is better not to disturb Shi Bo.Turned over and jumped off the wall, before the person landed, someone had already attacked, I hurriedly said: "Jinyu is falling into the jade workshop, come to see Lord Jiu." The attacker turned around and disappeared into the darkness, leaving only a few faint sounds laughter. In the eyes of others, it is the middle of the night and the charming love, but they don't know that the person concerned has already broken his heart. The bamboo hall was completely dark, so I gently placed the bamboo box in front of the door.After standing silently for a long time, he picked up the bamboo flute and played: The lights in the house were on, and the door was gently opened.Jiu Ye stood at the door leaning on a cane. In the dark night, his face was shockingly pale. Today's wine fight will be at the water head of Mingdan ditch. On the imperial ditch, the water flows from east to west. Desolate and desolate, you don't need to cry when you marry. Would like to have as one people, old age is not way off. ... Regardless of whether you and I have ever joked about wine, the music and music are in harmony, from now on, we will be separated from each other and flow separately. After blowing it three times in a row, the resentment surging in my heart finally calmed down. "You once said that my heart and the meaning of "Baitou Yin" do not match, so the turning point is difficult to continue. Today, my song and heart are connected, and I should play it well, but I would rather not play this song forever. The tune, I will never understand its meaning." After speaking, even though he tried his best to restrain himself, his voice still trembled slightly. With both hands, there was a crisp sound, and the bamboo flute in my hand broke. Before the broken bamboo flute landed, I had already floated to the top of the wall, and my body paused slightly, but there was still silence behind me. I shook my head, finally gave up, jumped off the wall, and left without looking back. (End of Volume 1)