Chapter 39 third quarter

"Look, isn't it beautiful?" ——Ah, I see, it is indeed beautiful. "Let me tell you, when I first arrived here and was not used to the life here, I sometimes felt very hard and sad. I forgot the reason. At that time, I would wander around alone before I found this secret base. Yes, and I found it at dusk. I didn't start my routine walks at that time, so I had room. I forgot what season it was, but I do remember that the sun did set in that direction, and it was over there that you can see the rocks The mountain is the tallest mountain in this mountain range, and the sun is just in the middle of the top of the mountain.

"To be honest, I often think about the life there. It is really busy and tiring every day. But it is incredible that I never feel that life is too busy and tiring. I think it should be a kind of integration into the big family. It was probably at that time that I really understood this. After that, although I knew that what I wanted most was a family, I was unable to have children. Even if I remarried, I would not let the marriage mess up again because of this reason. Fuck it, just give up. I have nowhere else to go except here. "But in this way, I really can't organize my own family. I will analyze it myself. Maybe it is because of what I can't get, but I will strongly hope to have it. I really envy everyone who has a family! A certain person in my heart The blood drips every day. It’s a shame, although it’s completely invisible on the surface, in fact, he’s a rotten person. Of course, I can’t think about these things every day, and I don’t have time to let me think about it.”

—Maybe it is! "Everyone is so busy, I feel very guilty if my hands are a little empty, really. But in this way, I can sleep well until dawn." --Ok. "Even though I'm so busy, I still feel so happy. Do you know? I'm so grateful to Chiori now, for her willingness to lend me all this time. I'm really grateful to her. Thanks to her, yes, I'm going to confirm The matter of my life has finally been confirmed, and all my wishes have come true. It’s just that I didn’t realize it, and I didn’t want to understand, watch, and listen. I’m too attached to the things I once had and can’t accept myself now. In fact, it’s not you or me. It's the patients, it's me."

Mariko crossed her fingers and turned her palms, stretched forward, murmured: "Wow, it's so comfortable!" Then she lay down on the turf. "Kisara, try it too!" Urged by Mariko, I also lay down.So she snuggled up quietly. "I'm not afraid anymore." Mariko put her head on my chest and said only this sentence, then gently closed her eyes.With the blinding sun looming over our heads, the rustling of the wind-blown grass came through our ears with unmistakable clarity.The dry breeze of May blows on the body, which is very comfortable and cool.