Chapter 17 Amy: Unswerving until death (10)
The next day, Shi Yan stubbornly refused to go to her future mother-in-law's house for dinner, but there was nothing there at Zhuoyue's house, no chopping boards, pots, or stoves, so she couldn't cook even if she tried her best.In the end, I had to make a compromise. I stayed in bed in the morning, didn’t eat after I passed by, and went to the cafeteria at noon to eat. Stay at the residence and watch TV, waiting to eat the results of his "mopping up".
In the evening, Zhuo Zhuo brought some food from his mother's house, and even "mopped up" an old gas stove and some kitchen utensils. Zhuo Zhuo carried the gas stove upstairs with a "humming and eating humming" and called Shi Yan Going down to help, the two of them brought some messy cooking utensils upstairs.Then Zhuoyou connected the gas connected to the water heater to the gas stove. After doing it for a long time, his face was covered with sweat and oil, and his hands were covered with oil. After this coolie, you will have to cook to repay me in the future---"
Shi Yan immediately turned on the gas stove to try it out, and it was very useful, but since she hadn't bought vegetables or rice, she couldn't show off her craftsmanship as a clever daughter-in-law, so she had to boil a pot of water to celebrate.
On the third day after returning to City D, Shi Yan started to go to work. When she was a student, she used to walk to class. One is that the place where the class is not too far away, and the other is that there are few classes in the afternoon, so she walks back and forth every day That's enough, besides, there is no place to park bicycles downstairs in the dormitories and classrooms. Everyone walks to class, so she didn't feel much about walking for four years.
But it’s different now, everyone rides a bike to work, if she still walks, it’s very cheap, especially in summer, it’s okay to go to work in the morning, if she walks back and forth at noon, and then walks home in the afternoon, it won’t take a week. Can tan like an African.She believes in the saying "one white covers three ugliness", and never believes that there are beautiful people among Africans, so she is most afraid of getting tanned.
She shared her concerns, and wanted Joyo to drop her off every day, anyway, it was a holiday now, he didn't have to go to work, and it would take only a few minutes to ride a motorcycle to drop her off.
But Joyo said: "Let's go buy a bicycle, you ride to work, if I pick you up four times a day, I can't do my job---"
Although she was a little unhappy, she couldn't force him.She went to work during the day, so she didn't know what he was busy with, but he was indeed very busy at night, and spent most of his time reading and writing.He lives in one bedroom, one living room, and has no study, so he works in the living room and bedroom. The tables on both sides are covered with books, newspapers or magazines. She came to pick it up, saying that his things were placed according to the rules, she didn't know his rules, and if they were placed in a mess, he would not be able to find them later.
Her job at work is very simple, it can be said that there is no work, at most it is to register the scientific research funding application reports written by the professors and associate professors, arrange them according to the time, and wait for the vice presidents to approve them, which makes her feel a little guilty , It seems to be mixing the country's money.
After feeling guilty for a few days, she slowly calmed down, because she found that other people didn't do much more than her. Watch for a long time.As long as she's not the only one messing with the country's money, she's less guilty.The country's money may be used for other people's fooling around. If it's not for nothing, it's not for nothing. Anyone who messes with it will be a fool. At least she won't use the country's money to do bad things.
From time to time, the building will order fruit drinks and so on to take home, even toothpaste and toothbrush. It is said that teachers and students have summer vacations, but their administrative staff do not. They are fighting on the front line of the scorching heat, so they should be rewarded.Every time she divided things back home, Zhuo Liang said through gritted teeth, "Look, China is ruined by these people."
She joked, "Then don't eat it."
Not only did he eat more happily than her, but he also retorted: "Why don't I eat? If I don't eat, I can correct these unhealthy tendencies? I just want to eat. Only when I am full can I have the strength to fight against them--- "
She didn't know who the "they" he was talking about were those corrupt officials who used power for personal gain, which made her think of his "risky" but "beneficial to the country and the people" career.She was a little worried, afraid that he would really engage in some anti-government activities, but she saw that he would stay out of the door all day long, and guessed that even if he engaged in some anti-government activities, that is, if a scholar rebelled for ten years, he would not be successful. I feel like my worries are unfounded.
And her own working environment also made her hate "them" a little bit. She regretted coming to this scientific research department, not to mention the overstaffed staff, and worried that others would treat her as Vice President Zhang's vase.As soon as she thought of the "vase", a terrifying picture appeared in her mind: Vice President Zhang's wife was found, and she must have said that she had an innocent relationship with Vice President Zhang. The planing made her look pale and disabled.Then Zhuoyue also came, and she must have said that she had an innocent relationship with Vice President Zhang, that she was bitten by her boss because she had a rotten egg, so her "scandalous incident" was published in the newspaper, and people Everyone despised her.
She is very careful not to have any personal contact with Vice President Zhang, nor any private contact with any male colleagues, especially the male boss, and warns herself: Be upright, sit upright, keep your eyes straight, and have no distractions. , Put an end to all misunderstandings under Li Xia.
But people still treat her a bit like a vase, they always talk about that, and they always bring out her undergraduate degree to accompany them.Many cadres in the department do not have a bachelor’s degree, and most of them have technical secondary schools. Lao Ai said in front of her: “China is now mainly supported by technical secondary school students. Those undergraduates have no social experience at all. Men just know how to study hard, and women You only know how to use a face..."
She felt that Oda didn't like her the most, and almost from the first day of work, he picked on her faults, from the tone of her voice to the calligraphy of her writing, from the length of her hair to the height of her heels, everything was fine and small, and Oda was concerned about everything. She can't see it, and she always finds an opportunity to express this dissatisfaction, which makes her very unhappy.
She complained to Excellence at home, and Excellence said: "She is jealous of you---"
She thought that Oda was jealous of her young, beautiful and highly educated, so she deliberately asked, "Why is she jealous of me?"
"Because my bike is better than her husband's -"
She was disappointed: "Don't you call people so --- vulgar ---"
"You don't believe it? If you don't believe it, you can find an opportunity to talk to her about motorcycles tomorrow. See if she spits and says that her husband's brand is good, domestically produced, and can be repaired everywhere if it breaks down, but mine is imported. Yes, it's broken and there's nowhere to fix it--"
She really didn't believe it, but she really found a chance the next day and bravely got on the motorcycle with Xiaotian.Oda is like a toy designed by Zhuoyou. When she twists the clock here, Oda starts to spin. She said that a certain brand of motorcycle is broken and can be repaired everywhere, and then rolled her eyes and demoted another brand of motorcycle. One call, saying that so-and-so's motorcycle broke down, and there was no need to repair it everywhere, so they had to keep it at home.
When returning home at noon, Shi Yan impatiently reported the investigation results to Zhuoyue, praised him and said: "You are really good at predicting things---"
He smiled lightly and said: "It can only be said that women are too shallow, with long hair and short knowledge. I can tell what they are thinking at a glance. Stop asking her about motorcycles, or she should force her husband Changed to a better motorcycle, but her husband is just a stall operator, only so big, if she drives her husband to death and kills someone, we won't be able to take responsibility---"
She laughed when she heard it, but he didn't laugh. He just said proudly: "If you follow me, you have to get used to being envied by others, and you will only be envied more and more in the future. If you are afraid of being envied by others, you should Get out of my way--"
She laughed again, and said seriously: "I'm not afraid of others being jealous, I'm just afraid that I won't be good enough for you---"
"It's just right that your undergraduate degree matches my master's degree."
"Then you still ask me to go abroad to study for a Ph.D.? After I do a Ph. D., won't you be worthy of it?"
"Don't worry about this. When my career is successful, I will definitely become the Minister of Education. Famous universities will compete to grant me the title of honorary doctor. At that time, my doctorate is not worthy of your doctorate?" He sealed the official position and made a wish, saying, "When you get a Ph.D. overseas, I invite you to return to China and become an official in the Ministry of Education---"
"I don't want to be an official. If I get a PhD overseas, I will come back to China and be an associate professor or something---"
"So unambitious? Don't even dare to think about being a professor, only dare to be an associate professor?"
"I'm not going to do it step by step---"
"I only heard that 'a soldier who doesn't want to be a marshal is not a good soldier', but I never heard that 'a soldier who doesn't want to be a squad leader is not a good soldier'. When thinking about it, you can't think about 'step by step'. If you follow the rules like that, what great things can you do? ?”
She asked curiously: "Then you --- aren't you going to take it one step at a time? Be the Minister of Education right away? How do you do it?"
"Can't tell you now--"
When she heard this, she thought of his anti-government activities again, and said worriedly, "Are you doing something---anti-government activities?"
"Do I look like a rebel to you?"
When he said that, she felt uncomfortable again. Although she didn't know what a person who engaged in anti-government activities should be like, there must be something --- some secret behavior, right?Otherwise, staying at home every day can turn the government against it?
Unexpectedly, within a few days, Zhuo Liang's secret act came.When she came back from get off work that day, she found that Zhuo Liang was not at home. She didn't pay attention at first, thinking that he was out shopping.When her meal was ready and he hadn't come back, she was in a hurry and ran to each room to look for it, only to find that there was a message on the writing desk in the bedroom, which was written for her. Among the piles of papers that Zhuo Liang said were well-organized, you couldn't really tell if you didn't look carefully.
She picked up the message and looked at it. It was very simple. Zhuo Zhuo said that he had something to go to City E on weekends, but he didn't say what he was doing there, nor when he would be back.
This is simply a bolt from the blue! She didn't expect that this period of time seemed calm, but it turned out to be a fake calm before the riot! She was sure that he went to City E to cause a riot, if not, why did he leave in such a sneaky way?And did not say when he will come back?This detail is too riotous. Doesn't that person just not bring the keys of the house every time he goes out to riot, to show his determination to go and never return?
She forgot the name of the revolutionary, it was a story she read when she was a child, but she remembered this detail very clearly, because she had lost the house keys several times, and knew the pain of not having a key, so she was always worried at that time How could the revolutionary be able to enter the door when he came back later? I really wanted to say to him, can't you just bring your house key?If you die, you don't care if you have an extra door key, but if you don't die, can you save the money for the key?
She looked around, but she didn't find that Zhuo Liang left the door key at home. He probably went to riot, but it's hard to say, wouldn't he just throw the door key in the cesspit?She was in such a panic that she turned on the TV and found out the newspaper to see if their riot was successful or not, or how far it had gone, but there was no mention of the riot in the TV newspaper.She wanted to arrest someone to ask what was going on, but she was worried that revealing his secret would bring him a fatal disaster, so she had to endure it, unable to eat or sleep, the seconds seemed like years, and she shed tears wash your face.
Shi Yan cried for a while, didn't even eat dinner, only thinking about what she would do if Zhuo Zhuo died this time, after thinking about it, she was desperate and dark, as if she had no interest in living.She blamed herself for not stopping him sooner, but she couldn't figure out how she could stop him. He never cared what she thought, he did whatever he wanted, even her affairs were all his hands Arrange, how do you ask her to stop him?
When she thought of this, she felt upset again. No matter how big a career he was going to do, he should tell her, right?Just ran away without making a sound, what status did she put in?He didn't take her seriously at all, he was such a person, he never took women seriously.He said clearly that he would not treat women as his whole world, why not treat women as his whole world?Not even being half of the world is not being human at all!
Didn't he say, "Women have long hair but short knowledge".In the past, when she heard other men say this, she would get angry, and she would argue with whoever said it. This time, for some reason, she didn't get angry after hearing him say it. She probably thought he was talking about Oda alone.In fact, what he said was "women", not "Xiaotian". Women include her. Isn't she a woman?She regretted that she didn't have a good debate with him at that time, as if if he had debated, he wouldn't have gone to E city to die this time.
She was in pain, angry, angry, and painful again, until it was almost ten o'clock, and then she remembered to call Yao Xiaoping to see if Yan Jing had also gone to City E, because Yao Xiaoping said that rigorous and excellent are the same A pair of trousers, if Zhuoyue went to City E, but Yan Jing was still in City D, what kind of trousers did they wear?Which pair of pants has such a long leg?
She didn't know if the strictness was also removed, would it be able to alleviate Zhuo Yue's crimes, she only knew that as soon as this thought came up, she had to figure it out, otherwise, she would be restless.
Regardless of her red, swollen and ugly eyes, she ran downstairs to the concierge to make a phone call.She heard the concierge at Yao Xiaoping's side call Yao Xiaoping, and she also heard Yao Xiaoping answer, but she still waited for a long time before Yao Xiaoping picked up the phone, she seemed not so happy: "What's the matter?"
"I just want to ask Yan Yan---is he with you---"
"What's the matter? How did you even think of asking this?"
"Is he with you?"
"Yes, what's the matter?"
As soon as she heard "I am", she was in no mood to say anything else, and said in frustration: "It's nothing, just be here---"
Yao Xiaoping guessed, "Did you quarrel with Zhuoyue and want to complain to me? Can you do it tomorrow? It's so late today, I'm all --- asleep ---"
She quickly declared: "I didn't quarrel, and I'm not asking you to complain. You should go back---go to sleep---"
But Yao Xiaoping's interest has already been raised, or her "sexual interest" has been suppressed, so she grabbed her and asked, "What's going on? You won't think of calling me if it's okay. Where's Zhuozhuo?" He didn't accompany you?"
She couldn't help but said, "Why do you accompany me? He went to City E---"
"He went to City E alone? Didn't take you there? Isn't this too lawless? It's only been a few days? It's still on the honeymoon, so that's it, and then you can still pay?"
She suddenly became an excellent defense lawyer: "He must have something to go there---"
"Even if something big happens, you can't leave you alone at home on weekends."
She muttered: "It seems to be --- political matters, I don't understand ---"
"What don't you understand? His university, your university, what great politics does he understand and you don't? I don't believe he is engaging in politics. Now it's not before liberation. Where is there any politics? It's all an excuse , If it is really political, can't he take you there? One more person has more power, wouldn't it be louder to shout slogans? Since he dare not take you there, it means that he has something to hide from you. If there is no basic trust between them, what kind of couples are they?"
The more she listened, the more annoying she became, and she didn't even bother to say the words "we are not husband and wife", and hurriedly ended the conversation: "You don't understand the situation, so hurry up and go back to accompany Yan Jing—" After finishing speaking, she hung up the phone.
But Yao Xiaoping's words seemed to get into her ears, and she couldn't get them out.Really like what Yao Xiaoping said, what kind of politics are there now?They were all lies, they were all excuses, he must have gone to E City to meet his girlfriend.
She remembered that when she got off the train that time, the train conductor said that Zhuo Zhuo should have asked the train conductor to help with the train ticket from city D to city E, which meant that he had planned to go to city E at that time. A certain goblin in E City must have been related for a long time.She immediately remembered that there was a station on that line where she could transfer to City E. Maybe he didn't chase her that time, but went to City E. Maybe he happened to meet her in the car, so she became interested when she saw Cai. He changed his mind temporarily and took advantage of her first.But he didn't take advantage of her in the car, so he followed her back to "Dongdongguai".
She felt that he must often take that train, otherwise he would not be so familiar with the conductor, let alone know that he could spend money to buy the conductor's lounge as a sleeper.He just said a few words to the train conductor when he was buying the ticket. How could the train conductor dare to make that kind of joke with him when he got off the train?
In this way, the whole train incident is a conspiracy, Zhuo Liang and the train conductor have colluded for a long time, even the egg seller may be their gang, deliberately bullying her, so that she will be grateful when Zhuo Liang comes to the rescue .Otherwise, why would the egg seller run away as soon as he heard Zhuo Zhuo's voice?No matter what, you have to quarrel a few words and talk harshly for a while, so as not to lose face, right?
There is another thing, after she knew the "problem" of Zhuoliang, she felt vaguely strange, but she didn't think about it deeply, mainly because he didn't give her time, opportunity and incentive to think deeply.Now he left without saying goodbye and ran to City E alone, as if he gave her a wire to string up a bunch of stinky meat.
That day in the car, Zhuo Liang must have planned to "serve" her first, and let her serve him verbally when he was comfortable with her.But she made a little temper, played a little temper, and drove him out of the car, and his plan failed.He must have had pus at that time, otherwise he would not have come to get close to her, this is the rule she figured out based on his performance during this period.But if he had that pustule at that time, if he didn't let it out, he would definitely be restless and in pain. This is also the law she figured out based on his performance during this period.
The problem was that after he returned to the train that day, he fell asleep comfortably, without fidgeting or unbearable pain. He slept until the next morning, and she woke him up.
What does that mean?
When she thought about this question some time ago, she just stopped thinking about it. Subconsciously, she seemed unwilling to think deeply, and she didn't dare to think deeply.But now her subconscious mind rebelled, and her rationality warned herself not to think too deeply, but her subconscious mind wanted to think deeply.Those thoughts are not presumptuous enough to form words in the mind, but the picture has already been formed.She could almost see the train conductor squatting in front of Zhuoyue, sucking his dick vigorously, while he touched the conductor's head with his hand, and said approvingly: "Okay, okay, really comfortable, really comfortable---"
At first she didn't know why she had the image of the conductor squatting in her mind, because she hadn't done that for him, and she didn't know where that image came from.But when she thought about it carefully, she fell in admiration for her subconscious mind.That day the train conductor sold his lounge to them. Of course, there was no room for Joyo to serve this kind of service. He must have done it in some toilet, and of course he could only squat.
She felt sick for a while, and she didn't know whether it was sick at the thought of their ugly behavior, or the dirty look in the toilet, or both.She couldn't figure out why the train conductor was willing to do this for Zhuoyue. It must be the train conductor who gave the money, so she remembered that there seemed to be a few old comrades left after Zhuoyo bought the ticket that day. At least the train conductor asked him for dozens of dollars. Money, but when buying breakfast in the county seat the next morning, Zhuo Zhuo said that he had no money on him and asked her for the money.She was blissfully confused at that time, and she didn't think about it deeply, let alone think about it together.
Now that I think about it, I'm such a fool. She couldn't even tell that he lied to her in front of her face.It's not a loss at all for him to go to her house this summer. He ate, drank, and played with her.Maybe he had a little conscience at the beginning, or maybe he was afraid of being responsible, so he refused to destroy her yellow flower girl's signboard, but she herself sent it to her door and forced him to destroy her yellow flower girl's signboard.How does this tell her to behave in the future?
Now she gets angry when she thinks of how stupid she was then, Shi Yan, Shi Yan, there is really no one more stupid than you in the world.A person like him, with such a vitriolic mouth, must have taken advantage of her and laughed at her in front of outsiders.It's even better now, just treat her like a house-receiving girl, cook for him during the day, and drain his pus at night, maybe he's telling jokes about her to that elf in E City right now.
The more she thought about it, the angrier she became, and the angrier she became, the more she thought about it. She remembered that time when she asked him about the dormitory allocation. He said that living with Yao Xiaoping was better than living with someone else.Of course that's good, he must have counted that Yan Jing would often go to Yao Xiaoping's place, and she had no choice but to come and live with him, so he ordered a ride to send her to him that day, and told her to go up first when Yao Xiaoping was downstairs. , indicating that he had planned it long ago.
Thinking about it further, it goes without saying that he was the one who planned the stay in school, maybe even the encounter in the corridor was planned by him, the word "planning" is written all over his body, and everything he does has a taste of "planning" , Nothing is from the heart, except that he was born into this world and he can't plan, everything else is planned by him, there is a taste of conspiracy, his name should be "planning", he The alias of "conspiracy" is called "conspiracy".
She didn't know how to express her anger. She really wanted to smash his house, but she was afraid of causing trouble. After all, she couldn't fight him. That Hu Liying had never fought him, so could she? he?She tremblingly walked from one room to another, trying to see if there was any way to vent her anger without being discovered by him, but it seemed that there was none. It will definitely be discovered by him.
In the end, she decided to move out from here. She thought it might be a kind of punishment for him, at least she could stop messing with this dirty man.She knew that Yan Jing was at Yao Xiaoping's place now, so she shouldn't bother them, but she thought: That room is half of mine, I can let you live in it when I don't need it, but now I need it urgently, can't I move back?
She packed up her things and put them in her travel bag, and she planned to discard the ones that couldn't fit.She wanted to write a note, but she didn't think it was worth it. If he was worried about her disappearance, he deserved it; if he wasn't worried at all, why did she write a note?
She went out with the travel bag and locked the door. She didn't know how to dispose of the key. She wanted to throw it away, but she was afraid that Zhuo Liang would anger him if she didn't hand it over when she asked for it, so she had to carry it with her first.
Carrying a large travel bag, she staggered downstairs, rolled out her bicycle, clipped the travel bag to the back seat, and rode towards Nanyishe in the dark.For some reason, as soon as she pedaled the car, tears flowed down her eyes. The tears stuck in her eyes, and she couldn't even see the road clearly when she met the light. She had to wipe the tears with one hand.The road was uneven, the back seat was heavy, and I almost fell to the ground several times.
Feeling in the dark, Shi Yan stumbled to the South First House by bicycle, and carried the travel bag to the fifth floor with great difficulty.When she arrived at the door of her bedroom, she found that the lights inside were turned off. She knew that the two wild mandarin ducks had already gone to sleep, but she had nowhere else to go, so she had to knock on the door cheekily.
There was naturally a burst of tension inside, Yao Xiaoping talked to her through the door for a long time before opening the door.She saw that Yan Jing had put on his vest backwards, with the shallow neckline at the back worn to the front, like a bib worn by a child, very funny.She didn't dare to look at the rigorous side anymore, she just said to Yao Xiaoping: "I--- decided to move back, I'm sorry---"
Asked rigorously and puzzled: "Why do you suddenly think of moving back? Isn't it good to live with Lao Zhuo?"
She couldn't answer, Yao Xiaoping explained: "It must be that Lao Zhuo went to City E without saying hello to her, annoying her---"
Yan Jing said loudly: "Huh? He ran away without saying hello? That's outrageous. When he comes back, I will teach him a lesson---"
Yao Xiaoping comforted her and said, "Actually, it's not like I didn't say hello. Didn't you say he left a note?"
She nodded, and immediately changed her position rigorously: "The one who left a note, why didn't you say hello?"
She said angrily, "I didn't say he didn't say hello, it was Yao who said—"
Yan Yan said: "Since he said hello, why are you angry?"
She couldn't answer, she just felt annoyed, she knew at a glance that she was rigorous and dared not offend Yao Xiaoping, she only dared to eat persimmons and pick the soft ones, and took her for surgery, as if she could represent excellence and all men, and specially taught those who love to make little girls Like a girl with a temper.She pouted and said nothing, and said rigorously, "Stop playing childish, I'll take you back---"
She was even more annoyed, and said stubbornly, "I won't go back."
Yan Jing was probably at the end of his rope, so he stopped talking, and Yao Xiaoping suggested: "How about this, you give Lao Zhuo the key to Yan Jing, and let him live there, because his roommate has occupied his dormitory, and he can't come back today." go---"
She knew that Yao Xiaoping's so-called "let Yan Jing live in the past" was actually letting the two of them live in the past.She was a little hesitant, wondering if she could give Joyo's door key, but she knew that if she didn't, she should go back to live there by herself, because the two wild mandarin ducks seemed inseparable.She boldly gave the key to Yan Jing, and said: "You can live in the past, but remember to come back early tomorrow, and put the things in the house back before you leave, so that he won't be unhappy when he comes back—"
The two wild mandarin ducks readily agreed, immediately packed their things happily, and went to Zhuoyue to spend the spring breeze, leaving her alone. Looking at this strange room, she felt that it was small, cramped, dilapidated, and dark. dislike; despise.
She found that her little bed was covered with her own things, maybe Yao Xiaoping didn't change it after she changed it last time, and just let Yan Jing sleep there.She was very upset, and she smelled a man's smell when she walked up to her, especially the pillow cover, which was full of men's scalp oil, which was suffocating.She hastily tore off the pillow cover and threw it aside. I really don't know how Yao Xiaoping endured it. How could such a head full of oily smell be hugged and kissed?
She tore off the sheets too, but there were no extra sheets to change, so she found a straw mat and wiped the bed, but she still couldn't suppress the strange smell, sprayed it with perfume, and slept on it. Still uncomfortable, I thought that I would have to wash all these things and clean the house tomorrow.But she thought that there was no washing machine in the dormitory, and she had to wash the sheets by hand, rubbing them in a washbasin, how could they be cleaned?So I miss the washing machine in Joyo.
She remembered that Zhuo Liang didn't have this kind of hair oil smell on his head, and he didn't have any bad smell on his body. It can be seen that not every man has this unpleasant "masculine smell", which may be related to personal hygiene habits.But personal hygiene needs to be supported by material conditions. Joyo has a water heater and can take a bath frequently even in winter, so Joyo looks down on those who only go to the school bathroom to take a bath once a week.
It just so happens that she takes a bath once a week in winter, it seems that all the girls in the class are like this, the school only has that condition, and you can't afford to talk about hygiene.When she was with Excellence, she was mostly worried that he thought her personal hygiene habits were not good, and she didn't even bother to think about what was wrong with his personal hygiene habits.Now that I think about it, there seems to be nothing wrong with it. In the current weather, he takes a shower and washes his hair every day, but she just takes a bath every day, so she doesn't necessarily wash her hair every day.
He once advised her to cut her hair, saying that short hair is easy to wash and dry, and if hair as long as hers is washed every day, it must be troublesome.Thinking about it now, he thought her hair was not clean, no wonder he never kissed her hair or buried his face in her hair as described in the book.Once he said: "Why do other girls who have just washed their hair have a smell of shampoo when they pass by, but you don't?"
She retorted: "It must be because their hair wasn't shampooed out—"
After his reminder, she also paid special attention to it, and found that she really didn't have that scent after washing her hair, and she didn't know whether it was because she cleaned it too thoroughly, or the shampoo used by others was better than hers.A few times, she tried not to be so clean, but her hair was sticky, and she still didn't have the fragrance.
It seems that he always thinks she is unclean and unhygienic, so he usually doesn't come to get close to her, and only thinks of her after the pustule forms, and the pustule formation is just a matter of menstrual cycle, without her She will be formed.
She thought about what happened during this period carefully, and found that she didn't know how she got to this point, she seemed to have fallen into his trap involuntarily, and she didn't even know where to regret it. Maybe this is fate. If you meet someone like Zhuoyou, you can only end up like this.If you meet someone else, the end may be different.
So she thought of Huang Hai, wondering what would happen if she followed Huang Hai?She felt that when she was with Huang Hai, she would not have these worries and pressures, because Huang Hai never meant to look down on her or despise her.She remembered that he was sweating profusely when he delivered the book to her house that day. He must have wanted to see her and talk to her, but only to find that Zhuo Liang was at her house. Maybe his heart was broken.
Zhuoyou must have made out with Huang Hai on purpose that day, as if he was afraid that Huang Hai would not be able to figure out their relationship and was unwilling to give up.The more she thought about it, the more she felt that Zhuoyou was cunning. From the very beginning, she was planning to tell Huang Hai that the steel factory was catching Huang Hai and telling her to leave City D as soon as possible.This time he told her not to take the postgraduate entrance examination in China, but to go abroad directly.But since he said his business was in China, why did he ask her to go abroad?He must know that she can't leave the country at all, so he used this method to prevent her from communicating with Huang Hai. It really kills two birds with one stone!
As soon as she was impulsive, she wanted to call Huang Hai, but she just thought about it and didn't move her feet, because she didn't know what else to say to Huang Hai now. After all this, she was no longer the Shi Yan she used to be. If Huang Hai Knowing what she did with Excellence, he would definitely not like her anymore.She can't be so selfish, ignore Huang Hai when she has excellence, and turn to Huang Hai when she is unreliable, this kind of woman, not to mention Huang Hai looks down on her, she even looks down on her.
The next day, she struggled to wash those sheets, pillow towels and so on. Her waist was sore and her back ached. She didn't know if it was because she hadn't done physical work for a while, but she felt that her limbs were very heavy. Comfortable, soaked in instant noodles in the morning, after two mouthfuls, I don't want to eat anymore.I went to the cafeteria to buy food at noon, but I couldn't eat it.She guessed that Yao Xiaoping and Yan Jing must have cooked delicious food on the gas stove at Zhuoyue's place.These two people are real, so they didn't tell her to eat together?
She hastily washed the sheets, hung them on the clothesline on the roof, and ran back to rest on the bed. She just felt that life was really boring, and she couldn't see where the future lay. She didn't like work, and love wasn't as good as she wanted. , I used to have a passion for postgraduate entrance exams, but now it has long since disappeared. I even gave Yao Xiaoping the books, and I dare not even think about going abroad.Life is so boring!
She lay there guessing what Joyce would do next.There are three possibilities, one is to come to her to explain, tell a legitimate reason, and ask her to forgive him.She felt that if that was the case, she might forgive him.The second possibility is that he had a valid reason, but when he saw her move back to his dormitory, he felt that she was a petty temper, so he got angry and stopped looking for her.The third possibility is that he has no legitimate reason at all, that is, he went to E City to meet his lover.
The first case is too good to be true, rule it out; the third case seems to be the easiest, what is there to say to this kind of hooligan?It was the second situation that made her anxious. It would be a pity if the two broke up because of a misunderstanding. When she thought of this possibility, she felt very sad, as if she had messed up something herself.
It was past eight o'clock in the evening, and Yao Xiaoping hadn't come back yet. She was a little panicked, fearing that when Zhuoyou came back and found out that she had given the key to an outsider, she would lose her temper.She called over there, and the concierge said that there was no one surnamed Yao living here, and refused to call someone for her no matter what.She had no choice but to run over by bicycle, and Yao Xiaoping knocked on the door for a long time before opening it, which made her very curious, why did these two people seem to be doing that thing from morning till night?
She found that the things in the house hadn't returned to their original places. The books and newspapers on the table in the living room had all been harvested into piles and put them on the coffee table. Yan Jing was watching TV in the living room. It's easy in your own home.Yao Xiaoping was obviously cooking in the kitchen, and since she had just been welcomed in, she went back to the kitchen and talked to her from there.
She followed into the kitchen and found that Yao Xiaoping was very busy. Both stoves were on fire. One seemed to be cooking something soupy, and the other seemed to be cooking rice. Vegetables were being cut on the cutting board, and egg shells could be thrown everywhere.
姚小萍表功说：“没动你们冰箱的东西啊，全都是我跟严谨跑去买的，再过一会就可以吃了---”
她急了：“叫你们早点走，把这里的东西归还原位的，你们怎么不听呢？现在把这里搞成这样，待会他回来肯定要发脾气，怪我把钥匙给你们了---”
姚小萍眼睛一翻：“他为什么要不高兴？他有病哪？难道我做好了饭菜请他吃还把他吃烦了吗？”
“但是你们没---但是我没经他允许就把钥匙给你们了嘛---”
“那也是你的问题，他要发脾气就该发你的脾气---”
她气昏了，正想说几句难听的话，姚小萍一笑，说：“你别把他想象成那么坏的人，他这个人很讲朋友义气的---”
她不知道姚小萍什么时候转变了对卓越的看法，也没心思想这些,只着急地说：“我们快收拾一下离开这里吧，他说不定就会回来了---”
“他已经回来了---”
“已经回来了？在哪里？”
“在路上---”
“在路上你怎么知道？”
“他打了电话的嘛，我帮你接的，我告诉他你生气了，跑回宿舍里去了，再也不理他了，把他吓死了---”
她心里一热，问：“他打电话干什么？”
“叫你去火车站接他呀---”
她一下想起那次去火车站接他的情景，心里涌起一股甜蜜的感觉，好像小时候在家里等了一天，终于看到妈妈下班回来了一样，并不是妈妈带了什么好吃的，也不是终于等到妈妈回家做饭了，而是一种“终于象个家了”的感觉。妈妈不在家，家里就很空洞，就差个什么，就不成其为家。妈妈回来了，似乎家里一切才物归原主，各就各位了。
那时她觉得她这一辈子都会那样离不开妈妈，但没想到现在一年才回两次家，居然也没哭死。
她不知道会不会有一天，她也能离开卓越而不再想他，她企盼这一天的到来，因为想一个人的滋味太不好受了，你自己可能都不知道在想他，就是觉得心里不舒服，难受，看什么人都不顺眼，做什么事都没精神，一直要等到他回来了，你的心情突然变好了，你才知道先前的那些不痛快就是在想他。
石燕硬绑绑地说：“我才不去火车站接他呢。”
姚小萍吓唬她：“你真不去？不去他可要生气了--- ”
“我怕他生气？他怎么不怕我生气？”
“算了，别在我面前讲这个狠了，他就快回来了，等他回来，你当他面讲狠吧，我做证人，看你们谁是真狠， 谁是假狠。”
石燕听说卓越就快回来了，觉得不应该呆在这里，既然她已经搬回去了，就不应该主动找上门来，应该等他先表态。她说：“你们忙吧，我回去了--- ”
姚小萍象个主妇一样，热情挽留客人：“怎么就走呢？饭都快做好了--- ”
“我吃过晚饭了的，不吃了，我走了。”说完她就往外走，听见姚小萍在使唤严谨：“严，去送送石--- ”然后她听见严谨极不情愿地答了一声，“等一下，等我看完这点嘛，石燕--- 先别走--- ”
她不等严谨来送她，就匆匆忙忙下楼去了，一口气骑车回到宿舍楼，心里有点担心，怕万一卓越不来接她求她，那她怎么下台？难道真的就这么吹了？但她随即想到：如果他不来求她接她的话，那就说明他一点也不在乎她，对这种厕所里的石头，还不跟他一刀两断？
她胡思乱想着爬上楼，赫然看见卓越坐在楼梯那里，发型有点怪，显得头有点尖，大概是太阳帽造就的。他见她回来，就站起身，拍拍屁股，说：“终于回来了，怎么招呼都不打就跑掉了？”
她绷着脸说：“你跑的时候打招呼了吗？”
“我怎么没打？我不是留条子了吗？”
“你条子上又没写你去干什么的--- ”
“我怎么没写？我不是写了我到E 市有事去了吗？”
本来她见他找到宿舍来，还有点感动的，现在见他这么强词夺理，真是气不打一处来：“你光写个有事就行了？你根本没说究竟有什么事--- ”
“写个条子，还要写那么详细？说了是有事，难道你还不信？”
她好像有点害怕他说她不信任他一样，似乎男女朋友之间，“不信任对方”是个很大的缺点，她含糊地说：“那肯定不是好事，如果是好事，为什么你不敢写清楚？”
他好像不太喜欢她这样一针对一线地反驳他，眉头皱了两下，尽力和缓地说：“不是我不敢写清楚，而是一张条子写不清楚--- ”
“那你现在不能说清楚吗？”
“我这不正说着吗？我导师在E 市，我们这些弟子不定期地去他那里聚会，主要是讨论中国高等教育的事--- ”
“这又不是什么要保密的事，为什么不带我去？”
“我怕你去了会觉得没意思，都是我们这个专业的人，说的都是我们这个专业的事，你听不懂，坐那里不是很无聊吗？”
她嘲讽说：“你们那个专业就那么不好懂？不就是高等教育的事吗？我怎么说也是受过高等教育的人--- ”
他无奈地说：“好，你懂，行了吧？我下次带你去，行了吧？走吧，回去吃饭吧，我都快饿死了--- ”
她一听说他饿了，就想起那次他从青岛回来的饿相，不由得心疼起来，没再扭捏，跟着他回到了他那边。
屋子里姚小萍正在摆桌子，严谨还在贪婪地看电视。石燕想，看来严谨在家里是横草不拈，竖草不拿的角色，只会坐着吃现成的。她不知道姚小萍这么殷勤地伺候严谨，究竟是出于爱，还是出于补偿的心理，也许姚小萍觉得自己在年龄和婚姻状况方面都比不上严谨，于是在烹饪和其它方面来弥补。
她本来还挺羡慕姚小萍，觉得自己跟卓越没有姚小萍跟严谨那样如胶似漆的，现在一看觉得姚小萍的爱情也甜蜜不到哪里去。可能男人就是这样，不是这方面不合你的意，就是那方面不合你的意。象卓越这样有点事业心的男人，就可能不那么顾家，也不会把你当他的整个世界；但是像严谨这样跟屁虫一样跟着女人的男人，就没有什么事业心，平平庸庸，光会享女人的福。既然跟着姚小萍有吃有喝有人床上床下的伺候，那难怪严谨跟得这么紧呢。
她由此推而广之，可能全天下的爱情都是这样的，男人要么不把你当整个世界，把你当整个世界的男人就很窝囊，一事无成，没有两全的，金无足赤，人无完人，既然世界就是这样的，她也不必为此烦恼了。相比而言，她宁可跟卓越这样的人在一起，至少他本人没什么缺点，唯一的缺点是不够爱她。如果换成严谨这样的人，恐怕光是那颗头上的头油味都把她憋闷死了。
卓越一进门就直奔洗手间，石燕帮着摆好了桌子，端上了饭菜，严谨和卓越两个人都当仁不让地吃起来，都像上辈子没吃过饱饭一样，吃得狼吞虎咽，津津有味。姚小萍虽然比较注意吃相，但也看得出是早就饿了。只有石燕，虽然姚小萍给她盛了一碗青豆猪蹄汤，叫她当陪客的，但她总觉得心里满满的，吃不下，
姚小萍吃了几口，就注意到石燕没吃，奇怪地问：“你不爱吃吗？是不是嫌我手艺不好？挺好的，你尝尝--- ”
石燕拿个勺子慢慢喝汤，才喝了一口，就想起前一趟过来时看到的光景，那个煮汤的锅子边缘上沾着一些干掉的褐色泡沫，大概是姚小萍在煮汤之前没把猪蹄先出个水，那些褐色泡沫就是猪蹄里面的血水。她想到这里，就觉得猪蹄汤有股毛腥气，不由得一阵恶心，差点吐出来，慌忙跑到洗手间去，蹲在那里呕了几口。
她漱了口刚走出洗手间，又闻到那股毛腥味，是从厨房飘出来的，因为洗手间跟厨房离得很近，也不知道是谁设计的，把这一进一出的地方设计在一块。她慌忙折回洗手间，又呕了起来，心想可能是食堂的饭菜吃坏了胃。
姚小萍在外面敲门，她怕姚急着上厕所，便开了门。姚小萍挤进那个小小的洗手间，悄声问：“有喜了吧？”
她一愣，但随即想到有这种可能，因为他们从来没采取任何措施，似乎连想都没想过，时间精力都放在对付那包脓上了。她着急地问：“你觉得是？”
"Definitely is."
"Then what to do?"
“什么怎么办？结婚贝，现在月份还不太晚，马上结婚还来得及，没人会看出来，反正他家俱也有，不用准备什么--- ”
石燕很茫然，既不知道自己想不想这么快就结婚，也不知道卓越想不想这么快就结婚，更不知道结婚了会是个什么情况，就觉得这事来得太突然，搞得她措手不及。
姚小萍安慰说：“我觉得他应该会愿意跟你结婚的，既然他干那事的时候不采取措施，那肯定是跟你有长期打算的了--- ”
她总觉得姚小萍的话有点不对味，怎么听上去好像是她在求着卓越结婚呢？她不高兴地说：“我还没想好，我不会这么快就结婚的--- ”
“那你想怎么样？把小孩子做掉？现在的情况我不知道，但是我知道以前是要单位证明的，你刚参加工作，试用期都没过，就为这事去开证明，还要休假一个月，那不搞得上上下下都知道你未婚先孕了？而且现在这么热的天，做手术很不好的，我有个同学，就是夏天做流产，结果搞感染了，留下后遗症，到现在都没怀上小孩--- ”
她的脑子乱成一锅粥，不知道在想什么，只知道姚小萍描绘的画面很可怕，但也很真实，正因为真实，才显得可怕。
姚小萍交待说：“如果你们去开结婚证的话，帮我注意一下，看他开出来的证明上有没有'离婚'这一条--- ”
她更糊涂了，不解地问：“什么证明？离婚证明？”
“不是离婚证明，是结婚证明，你们去办结婚证，不是要单位开个证明吗？像他这样离过婚的，婚姻状况这一栏可能会写上'离婚'，那多难看，登记处的人一下就知道你嫁的是个二婚了--- “
她还从来没想过这个细节，但现在看来也是很烦人，她的婚姻状况是“未婚”，而他的是“离婚”，怎么想都觉得不公平。她问：“你--- 见过婚姻证明？”
“我办过结婚证嘛，当然见过，但那是在我们县城办的，我不知道师院这边有没有什么不同，我估计是没什么不同的，肯定要如实写上婚姻状况，就看卓越能不能想到办法让人不把'离婚'二字写上面了，如果他有办法，你帮我打听一下，看他是找的谁，因为我不想到时跟严谨开结婚证的时候，我的上面写着个'离婚'。我的面像显小，身材也没变什么，如果我的证明上不写'离婚'，谁也不知道我是二婚--- ”
“如果写着'离婚'，他就不跟你结婚了？”
“那倒也不是，但是我自己应该把这些考虑到嘛，他一个青皮后生，娶我这么一个二婚女人，多亏啊，我能照顾到的，当然应该都照顾到--- ”
她现在觉得姚小萍还真的有点爱严谨了，当然严谨也很爱姚小萍，不然不会不在乎姚小萍是二婚。她又觉得男女不公平了，怎么严谨爱了一个结过婚的女人，这个女人就这么感激涕零，而她爱了一个结过婚的男人，这个男人就好像一点没感激涕零呢？她问：“你--- 那边已经搞好了？可以跟严谨结婚了？”
“还没搞好，正在搞，不过今天刚好碰上你这事了，就先问在这里，到时候知道怎么开证明--- ”
石燕觉得那顿饭吃得冗长不堪，她从洗手间回来后，就一直心神不定，不知道在担心什么，好像是怕卓越不肯结婚，又好像是怕卓越太肯结婚。她只希望这顿饭赶快吃完，姚小萍和严谨赶快离开，她好跟卓越谈这件事，不管卓越是什么反应，她都希望尽早知道，不然的话，她的心悬在喉咙那里，就老想吐。
但那两个男的好像吃得没完没了似的，先是狼吞虎咽一阵，等填饱了肚子，就慢条斯理地啃猪脚，面前都吃出一堆猪骨头来了，而且都是小小的，光光溜溜的，仿佛两个拆骨专家，庖丁解猪，游刃有余，骨头缝里的肉都没放过。
卓越边吃边赞姚小萍手艺好，说他一辈子没吃过这么好吃的猪脚，谁娶了姚小萍谁走运。
她听得愤愤的，什么意思？这不是变相地说我菜做得没姚小萍好，娶我就是不走运吗？
好不容易把那两个男人吃得放下了碗筷，姚小萍又无事生非地跑去削了一大盘苹果端出来，还高雅得紧，都斩成小块，让几个人用牙签串着吃。她真的不懂怎么那两个男人还吃得下去，刚才不是大碗喝汤，大块吃肉了吗？难道一眨眼功夫就全都消化了？
最令她生气的是卓越从头到尾都在夸奖姚小萍，而严谨就像是听见别人在夸他老婆一样，一直咧着个嘴笑，看得她气不打一处来，这两个人到底是怎么回事？难道是想演个双簧，侧面教育教育什么人吗？她觉得男人真的很讨厌，找老婆就是为了找个人服伺他，姚小萍会做饭，会伺候男人，这两个家伙就喜欢她，那他们干嘛不去找个保姆？
终于等到一盘苹果也消灭掉了，卓越又在问客人吃不吃冰淇淋，而那两个家伙居然都说“吃”。她是什么都不想吃的，不知道是生理上的反应，还是心理上的不安造成的，她看见他们吃了这样吃那样，就觉得他们的肚子里现在肯定像开杂货铺子了，她就有种食物堆到喉咙的感觉，只想去帮他们都吐掉。
最后那三个家伙终于吃尽喝绝了，实在想不出还有什么可吃的了，姚小萍才气势磅礴地对严谨说：“严，去洗碗吧，不早了，搞完了好回去，人家卓老师出了远门的，肯定累了--- ”
这话又让她生气，卓老师出了远门怎么啦？我这里还怀着孕呢! 这两个男的不体谅我没什么，因为他们不知道，但是姚小萍呢？自己也是怀过孕生过孩子的人，难道不知道怀孕的艰难辛苦吗？
她在那里生闷气，生完了又想，看来真的是怀孕了，因为“洞洞拐”那边有个说法，如果哪个女的脾气大，别人就会说她“脾气坏得象怀了儿一样”。
严谨乖乖地溜下桌子，到厨房洗碗去了，她觉得让客人洗碗不好，但又不敢命令卓越去洗碗，怕他不肯去，让她在客人面前丢脸。她自己站起身，说：“我去帮忙洗碗吧--- ”
她这样说，是想促进一下卓越，让他自动到厨房去帮忙洗碗的，毕竟现在有客人在这里，而卓越在外人面前还是知道表现自己的。哪知卓越不仅没受启发，还一屁股坐进沙发，涎着脸对她说：“燕儿，你去洗碗吧，我吃得太多了，实在走不动了--- ”
她恨不得说：“那你吃这么多干什么呢？你是猪？”
姚小萍说：“呵呵，卓老师别卖嘴皮子了，我一看你的样子就知道你是个不做家务的人，像你这种干大事的人，都是宁可雇人做也不自己做的--- ”
这倒是事实，是不是因为卓越是干大事的，她不知道，但卓越的理论的确如此。自从那次弄了个旧煤气灶回来之后，他们就在家自己开伙，但都是她在做饭，卓越从来不帮忙。有次她下班回家现煮稀饭，煮好了又因为太烫吃不成，只好放冰箱里去冰，花了不少时间。
那次她发了点牢骚：“你也帮忙做点行不行？你一天到晚在家，就顺便帮忙把稀饭煮上行吗？等我下班回来炒几个菜，稀饭也正好冷了，吃起来不是更方便吗？”
但卓越说：“我不会煮稀饭--- ”
“不会不能学吗？”
“我哪里有时间学这些东西？我又不是在玩--- ”
这是卓越的口头禅，只要是他不想干的事，他都是拿这句话对付，说他“又不是在玩”。但她也说不起他，他的确不是在玩，连电视都很少看，都是在看书写东西。她真的不知道他哪来那么多东西写，写了又是干什么的。他不喜欢别人动他的东西，也不爱跟她谈他做的事，他跟她的交流就是在饭桌上和床上，给她的感觉就是把她当个女佣看待。
她抱怨说：“那你也不能把我当佣人看待--- ”
“我什么时候把你当佣人看待了？”
“总是我在做饭--- ”
“我早就说了，我是不做饭的，你想做，我就跟着吃点，你不想做，我们就去吃食堂。你自己要做，做了又发牢骚，这就叫不能任劳任怨--- ”
这话像个棉布口罩，一下就把她的嘴蒙死了，她一句话都说不出来。他的确是这样说过，也的确没逼着她做饭，但她总觉得两个大活人，却要跑到食堂去吃饭，好像没道理一样，况且他也知道食堂的饭菜没有自家的饭菜好吃。
她生一阵气，又意识到自己脾气真的变坏了，决心要注意一点，便去了厨房，但发现严谨已经把碗洗得差不多了。她闻到厨房那股味道就觉得难受，赶快跑了出来，对姚小萍说：“严老师的碗洗得又快又好--- ”
姚小萍以贬作褒地说：“他呀，就会洗个碗，还是我教的。男人就是这样，你不教他，他就什么都不会做--- ”
严谨洗完了碗出来，刚好听见这句，马上拍马屁说：“只怪姚太能干了，什么都会做--- ”
这个吹捧没什么水平，但也叫石燕非常羡慕，水平高低不是关键，关键是这表明了严谨愿意讨好姚小萍，在外人面前都是这样，私下里肯定就更肆无忌惮地讨好了，而卓越好像从来没这样讨好过她。
姚严二人就在她满肚子怨气中告了辞，卓越送走了那两个，似乎就准备去干他的活了，她连忙叫住他：“哎，你先别忙着去写你的字，我想跟你说个事--- ”
“我可不是写字，我写的是论文，”他站下了，问，“什么事？我还有个稿子急等着交--- ”
“你先坐下--- ”
他坐下了，但不解地问：“还在生气？我不是说了下次带你去了吗？”
“不是那事，而是--- 姚小萍说我--- 可能怀孕了--- 她不是说'可能'，是说'肯定' --- ”
他愣了一下，一蹦而起，把她抱起来，转了两圈：“啊？真的？你怀孕了？那你跟定我了？”
她没想到他会这样反应，虽然他已经把她放下来了，但她还有离地飘在空中的感觉，嗔他一句：“这是不是你耍的阴谋啊？把我搞成这样，就跟定你了？”
他嘿嘿一笑：“要来'正规'的不是我的阴谋，是你自己提出的，但是没采取措施是我的阴谋--- ”
她受了他情绪的感染，也很欣喜于这个由阴谋产生的后果，有点娇滴滴地说：“那你还这么不当心，抱着我乱转--- ”
他问：“怀孕了不能转啊？那我再不转你了--- ”
她很喜欢看他这么驯服，开始把话题往结婚上引，她问：“那我们该怎么办？”
他不解地看着她，猜测说：“我已经说了我不会转你了--- ”
“我不是说这个，我是说--- 总不能--- 未婚先孕吧？”
他更不解了：“但是你不是已经未婚先孕了吗？难道你想--- 把孩子做掉？”
她真的恨他这么不解风情，到了这个时候，还不知道求婚，难道还要等她自己说出来？她等了一阵，看他的样子是不可能自己觉醒的了，便提示说：“姚小萍说如果现在结婚的话，从月份上讲，别人应该还猜不出来--- ”
他这才恍然大悟：“噢，是的，是的，我们结婚吧! ”
“怎么结？”
“结婚还有什么怎么结？就去打个结婚证不就是结婚了？我现在没时间操心婚礼的事，等忙过了这阵，我们再好好搞个婚礼--- ”
这虽然不是她的理想，但好像也没什么可抱怨的了，她交待说：“那你能不能开个--- 上面--- 没'离婚'二字的证明？”
“什么'离婚'二字？我说的是结婚证啊! 结婚证上怎么会有'离婚'二字？”
她解释说：“是这样的，姚小萍说从单位开证明的时候，上面要写清楚你现在的婚姻状况，而你现在是'离婚'，如果写在上面，那--- 多难看--- ”
“但除了学校开证明的人和婚姻登记处的人之外，还有谁能看见那个证明？”
“他们看见了还不等于全世界都看见了吗？我不想他们看见--- 我的是'未婚'，而你的是'离婚' --- 我一想到他们