Chapter 61 Chapter 60 "Invisible Hacksaw"

Ye Yuhan dialed the phone: "Old Shen?" "Oh, it's Yuhan!" Shen Yizhe, the director of the Institute of Experimental Medicine, immediately recognized it. "I'm very happy to be reunited with you—oh, what's the matter?" "That's right, Old Su wants to come to work." "Go to work," Shen Yizhe was taken aback, "When?" "Now." "Old Su just returned to Beijing yesterday. What he needs is not to go to work but to take a vacation." Director Shen looked at his watch, "now" is two o'clock in the afternoon.

"However, he wants to go to work now." "this……" "Old Shen," Ye Yuhan looked back and lowered his voice, "Lao Su sat on the sofa with his eyes closed all night last night, and only went to bed after dawn. Very bad, but said to go to work." "What about feeding?" "Barely eat anything." "Yuhan, what happened?" Shen Yizhe became serious. "This, let's talk about it later. My idea is that if Lao Su wants to go to work, let him go to work." "Then, that's it. Let Zhao Degen pick him up." Shen Yizhe put down the phone and grabbed another phone: "Hello, yes. Comrade Jin Xingji, please come to my place."

Jin Xingji is here.Director Shen said: "Little Xingxing, I have an important task for you." Little Xingxing smiled all over his face: "Great, I guarantee it will be completed." "Sit down, sit down, what are you doing standing up?" Director Shen waved his hand, "You are young, don't develop the bad habit of talking big." "Boss, I," the girl said with trepidation, "did I speak a big word?" "Of course! You know what the task is, and you can 'guarantee completion'? Let you climb Mount Everest, and you can complete it?"

"You won't give me a task beyond my capabilities." Jin Xingji smiled. Shen Yizhe also laughed, but quickly restrained his smile: "It's like this, Deputy Director Su is going to work..." "Teacher Su just returned home yesterday." "But, he wants to go to work." Shen Yizhe shook his head, "Then go to work. And your task is to pick up Deputy Director Su; and, to accompany Deputy Director Su all day today. In the next few days, if If necessary, I will also send you to accompany Deputy Director Su. The so-called 'accompaniment' means to take good care of him."

"That's great!" Little Xingxing clapped his hands. "Don't just be happy, Comrade Jin Xingji." Shen Yizhe showed rare solemnity in his tone, "The matter is not very simple. Otherwise, would I say it's an 'important task'?" "Don't worry, Director Shen." Little Xingxing also became serious. "Okay, you go to pick up Deputy Director Su now." An hour later, Su Guanlan came to the director's office.Lao Shen shook hands with him warmly, then sat down and talked.When Shen Yizhe attended the welcome at the airport yesterday, he only noticed that Lao Su had become thinner and darker, and his gray hair had doubled; only now did he see that Lao Su's face was blue, his eyelids were swollen, and he looked exhausted.

"Old Su, I can see that you are very tired! How about it, let's go on vacation." "Go to work first." Su Guanlan replied, "I'll talk about the vacation later." "Okay, it's fine to go to work for a few days. First, let someone report to you about the situation in the institute this year. After the talk, I will leave work. I will accompany you to the restaurant and drink Huadiao; then, Xiao Xingxing will accompany you to open One will." "Meeting?" "Don't be nervous. I forgot what the notice said. Anyway, it's very easy. Tonight at the Capital Science Hall at 7:30. You can go and relax." Shen Yizhe laughed, "We want us to send someone who has the title of professor or researcher and The leaders in charge of the business must attend, you must go. You can bring an entourage, and the most suitable one is of course Little Xingxing!"

After listening to the report, Deputy Director Su Guanlan happened to be off work.Shen Yizhe took him and Xiao Xingxing to a nearby roast duck restaurant for dinner.At the dinner table, Director Shen talked and laughed happily, and kept asking about the customs of Vietnam.After talking too much, Professor Su Guanlan's mood seemed to improve, her face brightened, and she talked a little more.Walking back to the institute after the meal, the driver Zhao Degen drove over.Director Shen gently tugged on the girl's sleeve: "Little Xingxing, remember my words." "Director Shen, I will take good care of Teacher Su!" Little Xingxing replied softly.Probably for the sake of "elaboration", the girl is not sitting in the passenger seat as usual, but sitting next to Teacher Su.

The brown-red Warsaw car slowly drove out of the gate of the Institute of Experimental Drugs.It almost crosses the entire urban area diagonally, and the road is far enough.There are many bustling areas on the way, crowded with pedestrians, and the car is not driving fast.The driver Zhao Degen still talked and laughed with Xiao Xingxing.Su Guanlan didn't say a word, she was actually listening, and she could tell that this girl was in a relationship.In fact, he had already heard this yesterday.The professor did the math, the girl was already twenty-four years old, it was time to fall in love, or even get married.He wondered: I was abroad this year, and Xiao Xingxing sent more than a dozen letters. Why did I only see her talk about work, politics, sports, and the situation in the institute, but never about "personal issues"?Yuhan seems to have talked about this in her letter.But Su Guanlan was too busy in Vietnam, the living and working conditions were too bad, and it was extremely inconvenient to send and receive letters, so she didn't take care of these...

The professor finally realized that many people in the institute, especially young men and women, were "afraid" of him.Little Xingxing was the most daring and unrestrained in front of him, but she was also quite timid.Love is said to be an "eternal theme," but not at the Institute of Experimental Medicine.Not only young people dare not talk about the relationship between men and women in front of Deputy Director Su, even middle-aged people are like this; there are no people who are "over 60 years old" in the institute, otherwise, even the elderly may be like this.Of course, Deputy Director Su never reprimanded anyone for this, but his cold face is enough to embarrass people.He comes across as decent, serious, rigid and withdrawn, and aloof.Now, Su Guanlan began to silently condemn herself: I have become a "cold-blooded animal", just like my father.This is not a good thing.The professor began to think: love may indeed be the "eternal theme".As long as humans exist, love will exist.A basic fact is that human beings are the product of love, and love should not be avoided and it is impossible to avoid it... Su Guanlan decided to change her image and do it right away.So he cleared his throat and said, "Little Xingxing, can you talk about your views on love?"

There was a sudden silence in the car.Obviously, both Jin Xingji and Zhao Degen were stunned: Why, Deputy Director Su... started talking about love? "Me, me? Teacher Su, my view of love, my view of love, I think," Little Xingxing was stunned for a while, and finally spoke.Like most young cadres at the time, she tended to "theorize" issues.It was just because of an accident, because of excitement, she stuttered a bit, "I think love is a necessary prerequisite for marriage, and marriage is the inevitable result of love..." "No!" Su Guanlan interrupted the other party, "Love can be the premise of marriage, but it is not a 'necessary premise'; marriage can be the result of love, but it is not an 'inevitable result', that is to say, love and marriage can, and in fact Often they exist independently."

The professor regretted it as soon as he finished speaking!He originally started this conversation in order to change his "image" and "communicate" with young people; but at the beginning of talking about him, he seemed so bossy and arbitrary, as if he was proficient in "philosophy of life". "I don't understand, Teacher Su..." Little Xingxing murmured. "Engels said that the basis of love is sex. But sex is only a physiological and instinctive thing." Su Guanlan decided to slow down her tone, be patient, and explain the truth thoroughly. "It is true that people are dominated by physiology and instinct, but since human Since entering a civilized society or a class society, it is more subject to the domination of class relations, political factors and social habitual forces. In this case, sex only happens occasionally and individually, and the 'real' love based on sex usually does not lead to marriage, and 'true', that is, legal, socially recognized marriages, are usually not love but the product of class relations, political factors, and the forces of social habit..." The professor said, wondering if Little Xingxing could understand. "You mean," the girl blinked, "that true love doesn't work out, or doesn't necessarily work out?" "No. What I mean is that true love must succeed, but not necessarily lead to marriage between the lovers." The girl looked at the teacher with a bewildered expression. "By the way, it depends on how you understand 'success'." Su Guanlan explained, "How should I put it, let's use an analogy. The relationship between Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai is true love, right?" "Yes." "There is true love between them, so their story is very beautiful, and it is well-known in China. But they are not married, and they have never had physical contact. It is a completely tragic ending; but their love has achieved great success. Success leaves eternal beauty.” "Oh, that's what it means." "On the contrary, the emperor has a legal, official and even prominent marriage relationship with thousands of concubines. Some old rich men in their 70s and 80s marry girls of 17 or 18. What kind of love is there? An example is Lu You and Tang Wan..." ""Phoenix Hairpin"!" Little Xingxing and Zhao Degen said it almost at the same time. "Yes, this is well-known in China." Su Guanlan nodded, "The marriage between Lu You and Tang Wan was a failure, but their love was successful, and this left the eternal masterpiece "The Hairpin Head Phoenix"." Jin Xingji was surprised: "Mr. Su, I really didn't expect that you never talk about this kind of thing, but once you talk about it, it is very profound." The driver, Xiao Zhao, also interjected: "Excuse me, Deputy Director Su, in my opinion, these opinions will not fall from the sky. Obviously, you have personal experience." Su Guanlan said nothing. "Zhao Degen is right." Little Xingxing said, "Mr. Su, I would like to ask: Did you ever experience that kind of 'real' love in your youth that didn't end up in marriage? Also, did you and Yuhan's mother Is your marriage 'the product of class relations, political factors and social habits', or is it the destination of love? You two got married so late, Tiantian and Yuanyuan are so young, I guess, you and your mother may have experienced too much tortuous." Su Guanlan remained silent, looking at the street outside the car window where the lights were just beginning to shine.He found himself underestimating the young people around him. "Ms. Su, in my opinion, the incompatibility of love and marriage is a unique phenomenon in the old era." Fortunately, Little Xingxing didn't get entangled.She pondered: "Now the feudal emperor is no longer ruling, old rich men can no longer occupy young girls, and parents can no longer interfere with their children's marriage and love. Zhu Yingtai no longer has to dress up as a man when she goes out to study. She and Liang Shanbo live today. They will definitely be able to marry happily. In short, the love and marriage of our generation of young people can be unified." "No, the situation is much more complicated than your deduction." Su Guanlan thought for a while, and said seriously, "I read a foreign short story, in which there is such a passage, to the effect that a person's first love, due to youth and Not deeply involved in the world, due to innocence, ignorance and sentimentality, lack of necessary spiritual accumulation and minimum material foundation, etc., so they always end up breaking up and cannot lead to the palace of marriage..." "First love always ends in a breakup?" Little Xingxing repeated. "It's a rule." "No!" cried the girl. "What's the matter, little star?" "No, that's not the case! These are the excuses and evasions of those unfaithful people. Teacher Su, you have been deceived by them." The girl shook her head vigorously, "Anyway, if my first love ends in failure, I will never marry for life! " "How can this work?" Su Guanlan was startled, "No, absolutely not." "Mr. Su, do you want me to be a dishonest person too?" "Didn't I say 'complicated' just now? Yes, many things in the world are complicated, which cannot be explained simply by being faithful or unfaithful." "But that's what I think!" the girl muttered, "Besides, I'm also afraid..." "afraid of what?" "'Men love their step-wife, women love their ex-husband'. I am a woman, and I understand women's emphasis on feelings. If my first love fails and I marry another man, I will always miss my first lover..." The girl choked up a little , "That way, my heart will be sawed in half by an invisible hacksaw!" "The invisible hacksaw..." Su Guanlan chewed these words, feeling her heart convulsing. "Ms. Su," the girl looked at the professor with tears in her eyes, "I think of a question—" "what is the problem?" "The 'invisible hacksaw' I just said, you seem to be very touched after hearing it." The professor avoided the girl's eyes and said nothing. "Tell me, Teacher Su, has your heart been sawn like this?" "Little Xingxing," Su Guanlan suddenly felt very tired.He leaned back, his voice trembling, "I'm tired, very tired..." The girl suddenly remembered what Director Shin had said was "an important task" for her.Director Shen asked her to "accompany" and "take good care of" Deputy Director Su.But, now... the girl was so anxious that she was about to cry: "Mr. Su, I'm sorry, I talk too much! What's wrong with you?" "Nothing, nothing." Su Guanlan closed her eyelids while shaking her head again and again.In the mist and gloom, he seemed to see a tall, well-proportioned, and light-footed girl walking towards him slowly.The girl's hands are plump and slender, her skin is white and soft, her face is oval, her facial features are sculptural, her lips are beautifully lined, her thick chestnut black hair is coiled into a thick bun at the back of her head; her big and bright eyes are raised high , with deep eyelids, long eyelashes, dark brown and blue pupils, as deep and clear as a lake in a snow-capped mountain.Her demeanor was indifferent and her manner was calm, like a statue of an ancient Greek goddess... "Sister Joan..." the professor moaned.At the same time, in a trance, he felt that an "invisible hacksaw" was pulling back and forth, sawing, sawing, sawing, his heart was being sawed in half, his chest was in severe pain, blood was like Spring!