Chapter 50 Novel Chapter 50 In a dark corner

(Nine) I laughed again because of the way he looked on fire with hatred when he saw those pieces of silver.Taking the prostitute's night joint venture to study and support his family, all his remaining good feelings were swept to the ground?So why did you finally take it?Because I gave him the theory that he could accept this handout.Poor man. I once again proved that there are no principles in the world, but only conditions.What a self-deceiving animal man is. (ten) I finally waited for this day.After Jiaoshu and I had a few drinks, we suddenly smiled softly: "Let's stay tonight." Then he quietly lowered his head.My blood rushed up all at once, and I looked at her in disbelief. I hesitated, wanting to rush over and press her under my body, but also had an impulse to kneel at her feet, so that for a moment Unable to move.She hid herself behind the pink translucent curtain, took off the gauze lightly, and let it slide down along the graceful arc on the back of her neck.I saw her silhouette, and the tree with an unknown name outside the window was in bloom, exuding a strong and strange fragrance.The moonlight came in through the window, making her skin crystal clear.I want to say a few witty words: "'The beauty under the moonlight forest is coming', but I don't know that the naked skin of the beauty under the moon is the most worthy of careful appreciation." But my throat was dry and I grunted, but I couldn't say it.She looked back at me and smiled.I couldn't wait to go up.

I was exhausted and paralyzed on her body, oh, her body is flexible and warm, like a mother earth, it can bear all the desolation in life.I couldn't help but kiss her full chest again, and she chuckled lightly.I suddenly fell down and cried like a child.She seemed to understand what I was thinking, and patted me gently, just like a child. After a long time, I said loudly: "Jiaoshu, wait for me, I will definitely..." She stretched out her slender fingers and pressed them gently on my lips, preventing me from saying it.Forget it, wait until tomorrow.I fell asleep contentedly. (eleven)

Sitting in front of the mirror, she combed her cloud-like temple hair, her face was so radiant that it was impossible to stare at her.I watched for a long time obsessively.Until she called me over and took out another bag of silver from the small box.I said gratefully: "Jiaoshu, wait for me, I will definitely succeed, redeem you, and bring you home—I swear!" Then I held her arm tightly.I thought she would weep and lean into my arms, but her eyes were full of mockery, and she said slowly: "The most worthless thing in a prostitute is an oath. Tell me, whoever swears by the curse will be destroyed." I was stunned.

Let go of my hand, swallowed my saliva, and I said again: "Jiaoshu, you are Su Xiaoxiao, you know people with your eyes, and I am Bao Ren, I will not let you down..." She interrupted me: " I am Su Xiaoxiao, you are Bao Ren? Wait for your title to be named on the gold list, and come back to bury me in a glorious manner?" She chuckled lightly, and said again: "I don't want to be Su Xiaoxiao. Tianchengquan——unless you are seventy or eighty years old, maybe you can catch up." I said in a panic: "No, no, I was wrong, Jiaoshu, I'm not kidding, I will take you home as soon as I want .”

She got up, walked to the window, opened the curtain, and the morning wind came in.She turned around and smiled again, her expression becoming more and more unpredictable. "Take me home? What are you doing? You have become an official, the Ming media is getting married, and you are carrying a big sedan chair, welcome me as your wife?" I was stunned again, not knowing what to say for a moment.I originally thought that it was her greatest blessing to be included in the back room and to be pampered by me.This woman actually wants to be the main wife?After hesitating for a moment, I stammered and said: "Jiaoshu, we are different, if you want, I..."

She interrupted me unceremoniously: "I think? You think, I don't want to, so what's the matter? Ask someone to praise you for your kindness, and you are so generous that you marry a prostitute?" I was speechless . "What's more, Jiaoshu's nature is sloppy, so she can't be a good housewife. How can Jiaoshu be in a closed backyard where the sun is out of sight?" I raised my head in surprise, and she smiled: "Unless you follow Han Xizai's 'freedom' Window*', can you?" No, it's too wrong, this scene is not my imagination at all.The lamb in my arms last night turned into this fierce fox in an instant.My face was red and white, white and blue.

She suddenly changed into a gentle tone and said: "You don't have to think too much, I'm helping you, because I don't believe that you are as useless as those little hooves in your mouth. I am naturally happy that you are famous. Instead of making love and becoming enemies , why don't each leave endless room for future memories." She brushed back the messy strands of hair hanging from her temples, and said, "Master Wu came to pick him up today for a lake tour, and I'm leaving." I stared blankly at her gracefully walking out, remembering the sentence "It's the fifth watch that I can't keep her clothes on the side of the pillow", and I slapped the coffee table with hatred.

I don't believe it, I don't believe it's true. After thinking about it, I couldn't help laughing.This was just a joke for a while, isn't she afraid that she will be left out in the cold because of her appearance?It is impossible for such an elegant woman like her to be willing to marry as a businessman's wife. Besides me, what is her best destination?I don't believe she doesn't want anything from me, she's just not sure what to do - I'll let her beg me!The key point is that Qiu Wei can only succeed but not fail, and feel proud, all at this moment.I clenched my fists unconsciously.

*Note: Han Xizai of the Southern Tang Dynasty had dozens of rooms for concubines in the back room, and horizontal windows were built on the side of the rooms, tied with silk ropes... they couldn't help coming in and out at night, and people at that time called them "windows of freedom".Or stealing and prostitution with all living beings, Xizai passed it, smiled and said: "Don't dare to hinder the prosperity." Or go to the guest's bed at night, and the guest writes poems, "The most difficult thing is to stay at five o'clock, and wear clothes by the pillow. "Sentence.

(twelve) Su Xiaoxiao?Yes, the one who brought the beauty of the brothel to the extreme is Su Xiaoxiao.She is too smart, for her, the brothel is the pure land.However, she would rather die before the age of twenty, and take this as the best fulfillment for her by God, which proves that she is still afraid, because appearance is her capital to please men, and she would rather die if she loses this capital.However, if you don't live for men at all, your appearance is worthless.Qianqiu's fame after death is not as good as a glass of wine in front of him.I am not Su Xiaoxiao. Redemption?Making love with kindness is the most bleak fantasy.I will not be so stupid.I have only myself.

(Thirteen) The aroma of the two specially moved flower trees permeated the courtyard at dusk in summer. I sat alone under the tree, sipping a small pot of tea.Everyone knows that at this time, you must not disturb me.That strong and weird fragrance made me immerse myself in that night many years ago, floating with inexplicable sentimentality. "Master", the housekeeper called out cautiously, and I raised my head angrily, "Ah Fu is back." I was shocked. "Call him over." "how?" "master……" I already knew the answer from his expression.For twelve years, the family members I send out every year always appear in front of her on a fixed day and always ask her the same sentence.She always answered invariably, and I could imagine the invariable mocking smile on her face. The humiliation and frustration hit me, making me feel as uncomfortable as a needle prick all over my body, and I threw the hot tea cup at Ah Fu, who was poured over his head and bent over in panic.Realizing my gaffe, I wave him away. I regret it.Twelve years ago, she was the first person I wanted to share the ecstasy with, but I stopped abruptly.I know that all humiliation is over, that I will be soaring from now on, that my identity is nothing like hers.Out of inexplicable pride and joy, I returned home slowly to pay respects to my ancestors, buy properties, and visit friends. I didn’t order my confidant to pick her up with a sedan chair and two thousand taels of silver until before I left for the post.Unexpectedly, when the family came back, they had weird expressions on their faces.It turned out that she walked out surrounded by everyone, just fiddled with the silver ingot, and chuckled: "Congratulations to your master. Why bother to care about some trivial things in the past. As for the redemption, there is no need to mention it. If he is really upset, just Make it a money lender. I lent him a total of one hundred and thirteen taels of silver, and I will charge ten times the interest, and you can take the remaining eight hundred and eighty-seven taels back." It caused a sensation in the whole city, and it became a joke. I hate this cunning woman so much.At the moment, I can only go to work in a hurry.Since then, no matter where Fu Huan is, every year I send someone to ask her the same sentence on time.That's when I reminded her from a distance: Another year has passed, and you are one year older. This road won't last long, so just obey me honestly.I started a tug-of-war with her very patiently. Her voice, appearance and body were gradually blurred in my memory. If it was still out of an inseparable desire for her at the beginning, then it became purely a goal: to get her, to possess her, Ravaged her.When I temporarily break away from the intrigues, the hypocritical entertainment and the trivial chores, and there is silence in the middle of the night, this idea always drives me crazy.I finally understand: If I can't conquer this woman, all the fame and wealth I have piled up will no longer be meaningful to me.The deeper the age, the more thorough the heart. It's not that I haven't regretted it for so many years. If I ran to her that day, maybe everything would be different. How anxious I am, I dare not touch it.However, because I didn't go there in person that day, I have no face to go in person since then.Besides, I was puzzled, this also couldn't impress her who had already become a fine person.I have no choice but to continue this war, imagining that when she gets older, there will be a day when the boss will be afraid and soft-hearted.But I wondered how to treat her after I really got what I wanted. I listened to the reports of my family one after another: which year Jiaoshu was named the oiran, and which son gave her all the money... until twelve years later, the family gradually fell into the cold.Unexpectedly, she still shattered my dream so firmly and cruelly. I waited for the opportunity to return home.Standing on a high mountain outside the city and looking down, twelve years are like a dream, how many twelve years can one live?I gave in, and I decided to avoid the crowd and go to her quietly. (fourteen) An old friend visiting?I have a faint smile, we have too many "old friends" to remember... I know that it is time for my romantic career to come to an end, and I have no regrets.After a few days, I quietly left the fat and pink alleys, went to my hometown of Huqiu to find a quiet place, and started the long rest of my life.I patrolled the small courtyard with nostalgia, and it was lonely.Withered grass and dry poplars, it used to be a singing and dancing venue, and the bustling is gone, as it should be.Also, nothing to remember. ……It's him?In the twelve years of endless entanglement, there were always his eyes in the distance, flickering, but he came by himself, which was a little unexpected to me.Through the swaying bead curtain, the candlestick reflected the vicissitudes of twelve years. He sat there quietly, not as if he had escaped at the beginning.He hesitated for a while, but finally laughed at himself.Is it necessary to meet each other?I quickly wrote a few words on the paper and ordered someone to take it out to him. Perhaps, with him now, I can live an undisturbed life.This is the only "repayment" he can give me.He will know what I mean. (fifteen) The beads under the curtain were tinkling, but there was no other sound. I picked up the thin flower note in confusion.With just one glance, my tears finally flowed down. I knew that I would never be able to conquer this rebellious woman. I have been hunting her down as my prey for many years, hoping to tame her and curl her up at my feet like a sheep. side, but now I can possess her by force, but I will never be able to achieve this dream.The kindness she gave me that I couldn't repay has become a powerful mockery of me, and I can only bear this mockery and keep carrying it.She will occupy my heart for the rest of my life, and I suddenly felt that special tender feeling and admiration for her again, just like that night, I fell on her chest and cried like a child. Why did I stupidly insist on turning her into a mediocre woman who would be disgusted by me?Isn't this better?The feeling of joy and desolation supported me to walk out trembling. (sixteen) Through the curtain, I watched his figure fade away.This is the first and last time he came to see me since he became an official. The beads falling under the curtain tinkled, and on the pear-blossom table, the paper was placed at an angle, and a drop of water melted away.A drop of bitterness suddenly melted in my heart, no, not remorse or regret, this is the best ending I can choose.I just suddenly remembered that night many years ago, he was crying on my chest, like a child. I crumpled it up and flicked it out.There are only two lines of ink stains on it. "If the head of the mountain is covered with flowers, don't ask where the slave returns." Outside the window, the flower tree began to fall one after another.Autumn is here.I know that I will win this battle after all. Although somewhat bleak. 2001